Stripped...behind these hazel eyes...

Pretty Awesome Lyrics

2010-03-27T06:33:00.000-07:00

Your voice was the,
Soundtrack of my summer,
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder.

And I said,your eyes,
Are the brightest of all the colours,
I don't wanna love another,
You'll always be my thunder.

by the one and only....Boys like Girls

My Chemical Romance...

2010-03-09T03:25:00.000-08:00

I miss you...
I really really miss you...

I adore you too...

And I mean I really really adore you...

And what you do...

The lyrics....are just

Just so.....

Indescribable....

When are you coming back?

I miss 2007's awesome concert!

The best of the best...

At least it was and still is for me...=)

The memories I had...

I still keep the free posters...

And the videos of you guys onstage...

Invaluable!

Yes,you're right!

I miss

My Chemical Romance....

a lot!

especially.....

Gerard Way!

~~~~~~~Songs this month~~~~~~~

I Don't Love You...

(but i do...i really do..............)

Famous Last Words

Welcome To The Black Parade

Teenagers

Thailand,Here I Come!!!

2010-02-18T05:23:00.000-08:00

I feel like going to Thailand!
WHY???

Because of NICHKHUN!!!!:)

OMG!!!

2010-02-18T03:28:00.000-08:00

That girl is sooo lucky...she's dated Kim Bum and Nichkhun before!!!
You can tell as her ignorant friends keep asking him whether he knows about her F4 celebrity ex-boyfriend,start singing the boys over flowers theme song and call her Miss Ga Eul!!!What evil friends!
But from this video,you can see how considerate and loving he is...
He makes sure she gets food,avoids her from getting the drinking punishment and asks for her permission before shaking her girlfriends hand...yeah just shaking a hand!

Again and Again

2010-02-18T00:43:00.000-08:00

Will and always be infatuated with my Thai Prince,Nichkhun!!!
Reasons why he has captured my heart...

He not only is charming,sexayhh,hot,cute and adorable...

but, he is smart as well!

Do you know that he's able to speak 4 languages,English,Thai,Mandarin and Korean???!!!

eventhough he can be oblivious and dangerous at times,

he's still one of the most talented and amusing person I've ever met!!!

Plus,don't you think we look a like???when i was younger..hahahahah

*ps. I'm the one wearing the pink powerpuff girls T-shirt,staring straight at...YOU!!! :)

LOVE

2010-02-15T20:08:00.000-08:00

Define Love....

You can't can you???

That's because nobody's able to...not even the most experienced can define ♥

However,everyone has their own definition...

I haven't found mine yet....have you?

But,for now I believe that...

Love is giving someone the power to break your heart but trusting them not to...

Nichkhun...still so sexayhhh...

2010-02-10T05:12:00.000-08:00

Nichkhun....still not over him...how can anyone be over him I mean...
He not only has the physique but the looks and most of all the personality too...
He's cute yet at the same time sexayhhh and hot!!!...
Moreover he has an awesome attitude...leaving Thailand(America..) to go to Korea a land where he doesn't even know how to speak it's people's language...pursuing his dream from scratch...training everyday from dusk till dawn....aspiring,no?
He's also so family-oriented...you can tell that he loves his family really really much,his parents,his older brother and his two sisters....

Nichkhun ...still can't get over him...
he's different from the rest so-called crushes...
he still takes my breath away every single time...and I'm hoping that he doesn't stop!

Life's Not-So Magnificent Wonders #1

2010-02-09T15:50:00.000-08:00

I'm so so so busy but I know that I'll regret not posting this...

Today's date is...

9.02.10

and this show was being shown

on two channels!!!

8tv and Starworld...(i think)

so cool,no???

Next up....guess what I just realized...I'll give you a clue

My dad's number : 019-21***12

My mum's number : 012-91***12

So cool,no???It means that they were made for each other...:)

Inspirations...

2010-02-06T08:42:00.000-08:00

Most people think thin is cool and all...but I'm happy to say that I think curves look so much better on us girls*...some prominent examples....

~Shakira~

~Alicia Keys~

Don't they look soooo much better than those stick thin figures???I think so too,so, I'm writing these especially for all the girls around my age...to love themselves for what they are...and to be patient,as you'll get the figure you want when you grow up...I regretted not listening to my cousin's advice,look what I've gotten into...

*currently intrigued by Alexandra Burke's bad boys song*

After listening to this,I admit that the bad boys are also always catching my eye...but don't get me wrong,I like good guys too..

My Cousin,Sabrina.

2010-02-03T07:43:00.000-08:00

As you know or didn't know, Sabrina got back with Shaun.....yes,I know finallly!!!

Sabrina Chuan Siow Chin(Sach)

and

Shaun Kingsley Sta Maria

So Little Time!!!

2010-02-03T06:57:00.000-08:00

Too many things too little of me...
I feel like I'm spreaded too thin...
10 subjects,

Bahasa Malaysia

English

Mathematics

Additional Mathematics(my favourite by far!)

Accounts

Biology

Chemistry

Physics

Sejarah

Pendidikan Moral

Siviks and Pendidikan Jasmani(not that important but the teachers do give homework)

Extracurricular activities

Christian Fellowship

Green House

Rangers(I'm skipping that!)

Tuitions

Bahasa Malaysia

Additional Mathematics

Physics

Chemistry

Other extras that I may be dwelling into...

Guitar Lessons

Gym(I doubt it-I tried it doing the hols and man was it torture!)

Youth Service(I'm not sure whether I'm staying put)

Dance Lessons(if only I can find one...sighs)

Swimming???(my mum says it's good for me as my knees are giving way from excessive use)

My mum's friend's daughter's cell group

Whew....that was little???yeah right if you're superwoman or superman which I'm NOT!!!

I need time to study,time to relax,time to do my homework,time to hang out with my family and friends...

I just need.....space..I need my own space....

The worse thing is that I can't even find enough time to read the bible and do bible study on my own anymore!!!arghhhh!!!!

*ps I hate this colour

the only reason I'm using it is because I'm trying to make my blog look colourful...like I said before...colours...never doubt them...they make life more cheerful and well,colourful...:)

A Boring Day At Home

2010-02-03T06:36:00.000-08:00

As I was feeling ill,I decided to skip school today...mummy let me as I convinced her that all the subjects taught today was self-study ones...Moreover,I'm going to school on Saturday,so it's the same as every other week,5 days of school that is...

However,staying at home was BOOOORING not to mention frustrating...
I mean nobody's ever online,and I get like heaps of homework after that...argghhhhh!!!!
However the only upside is that I got to sleep more(that was nice) and I got to watch all the nice shows that were held yesterday night(which I couldn't watch 'cause of my B.M. tuition-Eric Lim was like that's suilyn???-I mean did I really change that much???hmpph,I'll lose weight,you'll see!)

So the whole day,I was stuck at home...I hate being sick!

SICK AGAIN!!!

2010-02-02T03:32:00.000-08:00

It's only been 2 weeks...and guess what?..I'm sick.Again!

now,it's a slight fever...and i'm having a terrible migraine 24 /7!!!

ughh..i feel so,so tired all the time,always drained of energy.

not to mention I can't pay attention in class anymore...my head's killing me...

to top it all off,I can't finish my homework on time...it's pilling up like crazy...

moreover,the operation time to C.H.A.N.G.E......seems imposible now....

now the one thing i'm asking for is TIME....

time to recuperate,

time to catch up on my homework,

time to lose weight before chinese new year(which seems impossible)..or maybe my sweet sixteen..(that seems more accomplishable don't you think???)

time to do it all...

"all I need is time,a moment that is mine ,while I'm in between..."

Kim-Bum!!!x)

2010-02-01T05:49:00.000-08:00

*faints*

sigh.....how can anyone still resist him after this???

this makes me wonder.....

Lee Min-Ho

2010-01-31T03:51:00.001-08:00

....made my day today :)

S(HE) BE(LIE)VE(D)

2010-01-31T03:33:00.000-08:00

Don't you know ....

              there's always a little truth behind every "just kidding"
              a little knowledge behind every "i don't know"
              a little emotion behind every "i don't care"
              a litle pain behind every "i'm okay"

         *cause I do*

I GREW!!!

2010-01-30T00:26:00.000-08:00

it's been a few weeks since i last blogged but guess what...i'm sitting here with piles of homework on my right and the threadmill waiting for me on my left blogging the shit out of blogspot

it's almost february already...boy does time fly!i've decided blogging again as this helps me reflect back on what i've accomplished and well,not accomplished yet....

YESSS I'm happy to say that I've grown,in more ways than one

i've grown 5cm!!!finally after 4 years of disappointment,heart-ache and torture.....well i can't blame anyone except myself for THAT...

if you don't know me,you won't know the hell i've been going through....yet again,even my closest of closest friends don't know the pain i've endured for the past 4 years(one forth of my supposedly "lucky" life)

if you think i'm exaggerating,you're so damn wrong

for the last 4 years,i've been tortured physically,mentally,emotionally .....the only thing that kept me going was knowing that JESUS was there every second of my life
the obsessions i had....the demons in me....everythimg i went through might be too much for you to handle.....
some people i know ask me why on earth did i do that to myself....well,even i don't know why......all i can say is when the demon's in you,you don't seem to think right

you,yes you thought that i transfered schools because it was more convenient....yess the hell it was.....if you're smart you should have known that taman sea's way more convenient as it's nearer...moreover,i can follow inkkie and her brother to school..hell I was even in the same societies and clubs as inks'....green house,PBSM and christian fellowship...so transportation was just a cover-up....

truth is....................................................................................................................................
and my mum didn't give up on me.....she wanted to get her daughter back(i thank god for that)if not for my mum.....i guess i'll be dead by now

did i regret what i've done to myself???most people who have gone through hell like me would say no....but we really do regret the no is just a cover-up.......why???cos...i've given up soooo much because of that.....i've given up my life just cause of that...

what if........,i would have been much taller now
what if........,i would have loads of treasurable memories with you
what if........,i would have discovered my full potential
what if........,i wouldn't have lost you
what if........,
what if........,
all i can do now is wonder.....what if....

HOWEVER......... without going through all that pain.......i wouldn't have

discovered what my passion was...

known who my true friends were...

gained so much valuable life experiences...

appreaciated life (and time) more...

stopped judging people based on thier first impressions once in awhile....

and most importantly of all....

i wouldn't in a million years HAVE GOTTEN THIS CLOSE TO

THE TRINITY....

GOD,JESUS CHRIST AND THE HOLY SPIRIT...

so all in all....yesss i've grown....in more ways than one....

and now you know....you're not the only one who's suffering....

i am too....but i know that i can't affect other people with my sufferings and depressions...

i don't want to make them feel miserable too...

i wouldn't wish this on anyone....not even on my enemy...

confessed by suilyn on the 30th of January 2010...

*u don't know how much lighter my heart feels right now*

FAT FAT FAT!!!

2010-01-02T02:36:00.000-08:00

Some pics of me(yupsss...me...currently)....which i took with my 1 week old nokia n86 hp...

clear, no???8 megapixels okay...so gotta be!!!anyways I wanna,gotta,and have to LOSE WEIGHT....I can't fit into most of my clothes anymore arrr!!!!!...hopefully...with school coming up in a day or so.....i'll be able to lose 20 kgs!!!..high hopes u say???welll....i lost that much yupss 20kgs before....i pilled it all back on :(..

anyways...wish me luck as i find inspiration,motivation,encouragement and yesss,stress...to help me lose all those fat or rather flab!!!

Merry X'mas 2009!!!!

2009-12-24T11:04:00.000-08:00

I'm soooooo happy today...b'cos....

1) I got my nokia n86(indigo)yesterday!!!
2) I got my PMR results--7A's!!!yay me!!!
3) Sabrina Chuan(abee)accompanied me in 1U(we haven't shopped together for ages!!! and 1U was her second home:)...)
4)I didn't really buy anythin...just 2 pairs of sandals for RM50 as mine were hurting me...so later back at her place,she gave me some of her old clothes and a really nice handbag/slingbag 'cos I was looking for 1...)
5)I got myself a really cool handphone number that has a nice ring to it!(thanks to abee for helping me pick one up!)...017-*******.....hahaha...no way am I silly enough to reveal my real number...but I like the number 7....my lucky number..............
6)It's just a number...
7)It's Christmas!!!.....

bye for now.....it's soooooo late...got to go....anyways...hong wei...i hope u're not really going to singapore either!.....u're a great friend....helpful and trustworthy!

N86!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-23T09:45:00.000-08:00

yupsss....I've changed my mind....I've decided on a n86 as it's the latest model...so...yay me!!!plus...daddy found it at a relatively cheap price...RM1290....let's hope it's genuine and not imitation...I'm keeping my fingers crossed....nothing really much to say...just that pmr results are coming out in like 6 hours time...anyways...I'm not going to school...hahaha...I'm just pure lazy...besides that I would like to thank Wayne Lim Hong Wei and Delon Wong Yinn Haur for helping me pick out my ideal handphone....sorry for disturbing you guys so much by the way...you have been awesome...x'mas is tomorrow...and school's starting in 'bout a week or so....so wish me luckssss...'cos I'm gonna need it!....chiao for now....

What,which,why,when,where, and last but most importantly how ???

2009-12-20T00:48:00.000-08:00

I'm just sooo lost right now...(what)phone shall I get???
                                            (which)model should I choose???
                                            (why oh why)would I love to possess it???
                                            (when)could I obtain it???
                                            (where)shall I purchase it???
and most importantly of all...(how) on earth am I gonna afford it if my parents object???

well after getting some advice and thinking 'bout it....

I've narrowed it down to these few choices....help me pick pls...

an apple iphone
a nokia n82
a nokia n79
a nokia 6500(like my daddy)
a nokia xpress series(touchhscreen)
an ordinary flip phone instead of a slide one....

well...waddya think???....me???...well....my heart was sat on the nokia n82 but now i'm considering an iphone since hong wei said that it was both 'bout the same price...

Loneliness knows me by my name...

2009-12-19T10:39:00.000-08:00

Loneliness is always looking for a friend
It found me once and it has been around since then
Loneliness is never waiting by the door
It sweeps right through and it will never be ignored
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The Love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Loneliness knows everything I keep inside
My endless thoughts in the silence of the night
Loneliness is the one who made me see
Ain't nobody else who can make a change but me
Why, why was I chosen?
Why am I left without?

The Love of my life, the love that I need
The love that they say is in life for free
The love of dreams, the love that I want
Loneliness knows me by name

Less is more and that would be the vacant space
The cried out tears and a never ending maze
I have found what only loneliness provides
A strength within knowing I will find

hopefully....this other song will be playing in my head soon.....

There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
How many I told you's
And start overs and shoulders
Have you cried on before
How many promises be honest girl
How many tears you let hit the floor
How many bags you packed
Just to take 'em back, tell me that
How many either or's
But no more,
If you let me inside of your world
There'd be one less lonely girl
(Chorus)
Oh no
I saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you, you
Now all I see is you
Oh no
Don't need these other pretty faces
'Cause when your mine in the world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what your worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
Christmas wasn't merry, 14th of February
Not one of them spent with you
How many dinner dates, set dinner plates
And he didn't even touch his food
How many torn photographs are you taping back
Tell me that you couldn't see an open door
But no more,
If you let me inside of your world
(Chorus)
Oh no
I saw so many pretty faces
Before I saw you, you
Now all I see is you
Oh no
Don't need these other pretty faces
'Cause when your mine in the world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I'm gonna put you first
I'll show you what your worth
If you let me inside your world
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
I can fix up your broken heart
I can give you a brand new start
I can make you believe,
I just wanna set one girl free to fall
She's free to fall
With me
My hearts locked and nowhere to get the key
I'l take her and leave this world
With one less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
There's gonna be one less lonely girl
One less lonely girl
Yaaaah

Body Language...

2009-12-17T11:02:00.000-08:00